Tuesday, March 31, 2015

My tattoos









Hi! the other day someone asked me about my tattoos and how many I had. I usually forget I even have them cause I put them in places I don't see them directly, which was one of the reasons I chose that place so I wouldn't get bored with them. Anyways here are my tattoos and a brief explanation about them. 

The first picture shows a little heart I have for my best friend. It was my 2nd tattoo and it hurt a little bit not much.

The second picture is an arrow. My 3rd tattoo. It means that even if you give a step backwards you always shoot forward. I chose it for the mistakes I did in the past.











My 4th tattoo is a world map. It is for my desire to travel the world. 

My 1st tattoo is 'I Love You' in Swedish and I got it for my husband. 











And my last and 5th tattoo is little icons that represent different things in my life. 

1. Harry Potter
2. Yin yan for my bff
3. My love for music
4. Dog paw is for me being 7 years a vegetarian
5. Japanese kanji meaning family for my family
6. Clover for my bff and her family is like my second family and I'm happy to have found them.


And well, that was it. At the beginning, I didn't wanted nor liked tattoos and still some I don't like but I thought about every and each one of the ones I have very carefully. My parents and family kind of didn't approve but at the end my mom went with me when I did my first tattoo just to see how much it was going to hurt me since I am really sensitive jaja. My dad and rest of my family still don't like them much but at the end is my choice and they accept it. Sometimes they call me gangster or chola haha but it's ok, I don't care. I like them and that is what matters. If you are thinking about getting one, think very carefully about everything: place, and meaning so you don't regret them lather on in life. They do hurt as well and the bigger and more colorful the more pain but after the first tattoo and after you had experience the pain you won't mind the others. I didn't wanted to be a long post just felt like sharing for those friends that were wondering. Thanks for reading. Bye!!!

Monday, March 9, 2015

Random

Hoy tengo muchos sentimientos encontrados. Eh estado muy feliz ultimamente, no eh llorado, no me eh deprimido. Aunque al mismo tiempo si me eh sentido un poco abajo debido a mi ex, mejor amigo que nisiquiera se molesta en mandarme un mensaje en como estoy. La verdad soy yo la que  siempre le manda mensajes y saluda pero es cansado sentirse que no le importas a nadie. Oh a los que pensabas importarle. Pero poes bueno yo fui la que despues de un mes que el no me mando nada le mande un mensaje y ahora despues de 4 dias en que no me manda a saludar yo me siento como mal por lo mismo. Peri ya no quiero ser yo la que empieze la conversacion. Siempre soy yo y ya no quiero. Si te importa alguien se lo demuestras pero tambien si no hay respuesta uno se decepsiona y cansa. 

Sunday, March 1, 2015

My store on society6

Finally I opened my store! being planning it for a little while now and today was the day, Be sure to check it out for original artworks from me and other things!

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Woke up

Today I came to the realization that I am really happy right now! finally I can say that after sometime being really sad and depressed I feel very good at the moment. And if that isn't the point of life then I don't know what it is.

It has been a long way I worked really hard on high school without noticing, getting admitted to university but deciding to go to community college first. I used to work and go to school and was always very busy and stressed but that always made me feel better and productive. I was very independent and brought my car and other things I wanted with my own sweat. I finally got to university and finished it and was very lucky to never had paid money for tuiton but instead got many scholarships to complete my dream. As I stated before I worked and studied.

I experienced a lot. I was in many groups and travelled. Volleyball, basketball, student council, honor society, art association and got to experience very much in so little time. I was thought by my mother to save money to get what I wanted and with the hard work of a part time job I got enough money through the years to travel to Disneyland, Monterrey, Guadalajara and Riviera Nayarita, London, and Cancun. I dont even know how I did it till now but I always persevered.

I married to the best person ever. I am very happy to say I founf an amazing guy that trully loves me and shows it everyway he cans and I couldn't ask for more cause what else do I need. Finally, we moved to Sweden where I have plans on my own and have an amazing family with two crazy dogs and a guy. After being 7 years of being vegetarian I finally found my healthy way of eating balanced and currently working on my health and body. And have many more exciting things coming up.

Life is an adventure and I am very happy about my past, my present and excited about my future.





Saturday, February 21, 2015

Bad dream.

I totally hate this feeling. The one you have when you wake up from a dream you didn't wanted to have.And now is snowing outside, AGAIN. It feels like the weather reflects exactly how I felt. In one hand I start seeing the bright side. The past snow is melting and the ice is slowly going away leaving a rocky path for me to follow and don't look at every step I make but then a cloud rains over me bringing more coldness, shadow and gray. And it starts snowing again and then all the sunshine is out and then I feel down and all those bad memories come back. I didn't come out of a depression to fall again. Like an addict I want to let go and leave all those attachments behind the ones that once used to captured me and seemed that they would never let go. But at least today all those old addictions seemed to appeared in my dreams and haunt me again like a ghost. I hope today I don't dream. I hope it would stop snowing.

Lo Sabia y te lo Dije.

Siempre te dije que llegaria algun dia. Y siempre me juraste que no. Que nunca serias mi fantasma. Ahora solo me encuentro despertando de un amargo sueno en donde me quedo tu recuerdo presente. Como odio tenerte en mi mente. Porque mi subconsiente juega con mis sentimientos. Sonando hacerca de nuestro primer beso, de nuestro ultimo beso. Sonando contigo y como cada vez me mentias, como fuiste cambiando a ser lo que ya no eres en mi vida. Despierto con una tristeza profunda. Y por mas que pasan los meses aun te tengo tan presente. Aun no te puedo borrar de esta razon.Como quisiera tomarme una pastilla para borrar tu memoria. No lo dudaria dos veces. Porque mas que amor tu me trajiste corazones rotos y desespero.Llanto y tristeza. Te ame demasiado y tu no pudiste nunca amarme igual y lo peor del caso es que aun te amo. No sera igual ni con la misma potencia que antes pero enganaste a mi corazon tal cual que no te puede expulsar.Enganaste a mi cuerpo que aun te quiere abrazar, enganaste esta boca que te quiere besar. Pero cuento los dias paraque un dia mi cuerpo convulsione antetu presencia y expulse los malos ratos que me hiciste vivir. Y que algun dia yo pueda borrarte de mi mente y poder ser mas feliz.